Spirituality
“A robin red breast in a cage,
Puts all heaven in a rage.”
William Blake
Trying to uphold the impossible image of a
perfect Christian is probably something that most of us can relate to, having
tried at some stage to conform in our thinking and/or behaviour to what was wanted,
expected and acceptable to the Church.
When any of us tries to force ourselves (knowingly or not) into a box that doesn't fit, be it faith, job, friendship, whatever, more often than not our spirits mutiny; the fall-out is a slow, creeping death from deep within, of which we're often not even conscious. People can use quite graphic images to describe how this experience has been for them:
- it's like being stuck in a can of sardines,
all lined up with no way of moving
- I feel like a jack-in-a-box
- it's like being tied in a straight-jacket
As our spirits speak to us, and dare I say
God's spirit speaks to us, we wake up to our denial and aching limbs. The
cramped conditions become increasingly unliveable and there is a sense of
coming to a place, of God bringing us to a place, where we need to break free
and journey into the unknown; into fully discovering and expressing our
personalities, ideas and opinions; into further adventures of life and
spirituality.
Spirituality may well defy definition, but
it has to do with life, lived life, embraced life, real life. It involves an
intertwining and interaction between body, mind, heart and spirit. There's an
Indian proverb which says:
"everyone is a house with four rooms,
a physical, a mental, an emotional and a spiritual. Most of us tend to live in
one room most of the time but unless we go into every room every day, even if
only to keep it aired, we are not a complete person."
We get to know our true selves, the good,
the bad and the ugly and learn to accept, nurture and appreciate everything
that makes us us. We are our past, present and future; at any moment we are
what we have been, are and will become. Perhaps as we grow in our knowledge of
ourselves we grow in our knowledge of God, and so as we explore and live as we
truly are so we journey into God - I think so.Â
Anais Nin puts it this way “The personal life deeply lived always
expands into truths beyond itself.”
The journey is not one of self-absorption
but has a profound impact on the way we live and our interactions with the
world. It is not an easy road, perhaps the hardest one of all, for it is a
journey into wholeness and into holiness.
“Spirituality is a lot like a natural
homing instinct. It is flying home to the place of my true identity and purpose
– the “I am” place. Only from that place can I live life to the full – in all
its abundance. Only from that place can I be strengthened for the journeys of
life.” Maggie Smith+
Donia Macartney-Coxson
+ From Spirituality is a lot like that in
Refresh,
Spirituality Is…A Journal of Contemplative
Spirituality,
Summer 2003, Volume 3, No 2.